I think today is my turn. I started feeling THAT way last night and I think today it has just hit me full on. October is always my busy time of year. I make window treatments for the Flexsteel Showroom for the International Home Furnishings Market, I work for 2 weeks prior to market helping to set up the Guildmaster Showroom (which I absolutely love, by the way) and I am teaching sewing classes(which I love, as well). Today I looked at my calender and realized that I don’t have as much time to complete all of these tasks as I had thought. (I think I could have been in denial.) Reality hit today. Worry hit today. What have I gotten myself into??? hit today. And then there is always the overwhelming feeling that by doing all of these things, you are taking away from your family. And that makes you feel like a bad mom and a bad spouse. And even though you know everything will work out just fine and that your family loves you and thinks you are a great mom, you still worry. All of these feelings make me think that I really need to re-evaluate where I’m at and why I am doing the things I do and what things in my life need to change. I want to figure out what things are most important to me and what things I love to do and I want to do THOSE things. That’s kinda where I’m at today.
Don’t beat yourself up so much Gina, we all suffer from this same thing every now and then.
Keep your chin up and what gets done, gets done and what doesn’t, doesn’t. The world will keep
on turning and your family will be at your side.
;o) hugs
Carolyn*
Lots of decisions. Deciding what you really love to do is a start.